Hi
I'm looking for a decent online community where I can meet a few people even if it's just online. I need to find people that understand my needs. Not my desires, not my wants.
I've always been able to have normal sex; just plain fucking a girl I find interesting. However...it doesn't really excite me much anymore. It almost makes me uncomfortable to have to please another person. Filled with a sort of dread...
Dominance and pain are what I more than want, I am beginning to need. I need a girl that is the opposite of me. That needs her throat squeezed, choked to the point of blacking out. Slaps that bruise, spankings that bruise...I need a girl that wants to be mentally and physically dominated. A doll that gets destroyed like a toy soldier. Sex is such an afterthought for me.
Domination, humiliation, over anyone gives me a sort of pleasure that an orgasm can't match. An unexplainable high that you can never reach with normal sex.
I know there are girls here that like to be "abvsed", is there anyone that can relate to my needs...? I can't play fantasy with normal people anymore, it brings me zero satisfaction.
If I can find just one person to chat with that'd be cool. I' have no one right now, and this not something I share with people I know. It's not socially acceptable.